Merry Christmas, my darling Mother

This is our fourth Christmas without our beloved mother, and to me it feels like the longest journey in the world. My heart goes out to everyone who has lost a parent. It is truly one of the deepest tragedies of our experience.
My mom always made Christmas so incredibly special! She loved it, and even with the stress of having to plan so much for so many, always running around making sure she found just the right present for each person, she still managed to make the day magical. I can close my eyes right now and picture it all, feel the warmth and the glow of the beautiful lights, the wonderful smells coming from the kitchen, and most of all my mother's laughter.
The last time I was with my mom before she began slipping away from us, she took my face in her hands and smiled the most loving smile I have ever seen. She wasn't able to speak but we didn't need words. Our love went beyond words, the depth of love between a mother and child is unmeasurable. It was the greatest gift that God has ever given to me and one that I am thankful for each and every day.
Merry Christmas, my darling Mother. Each day with you was the best day of my life. Each day without you is the hardest. I will keep trying to accept it all and understand that you still live within my heart, within my soul and in all of us. I will work hard this year to make you proud of me. I miss you. Love, Kerry